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Count HIS blessings... (81)

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 23:42:37 GMT

I read an article in the book last night and my soul was touched by the words and the verses quoted by the article, it was such a familiar verse in Paslm (103), but I don't think I have paid enough attention to the verse.

Bless the LORD, O my soul: and all that is within me, bless his holy name.
Bless the LORD, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits:
Who forgiveth all thine iniquities; who healeth all thy diseases;
Who redeemeth thy life from destruction; who crowneth thee with lovingkindness and tender mercies;
Who satisfieth thy mouth with good things; so that thy youth is renewed like the eagle's.
The LORD executeth righteousness and judgment for all that are oppressed.

Let me count a few of His blessings, the book was right, it's countless, but it said count 10 or 20 and you'll feel different, I just wanna be grateful:

1. my car problem, it was like a miracle, you heard animal self-healing, but never car self-healing! I'll never forget!
2. PD operation successful, after the first failure, i was so frightened, me too young to take PD?.... He again!
3. Colleagues, more wisdom given to me to be friendly and cooperative w all!
4. energy, i like exercises now, this "likeness" is a miracle again, when you don't like, you never pick up!
5. going up staircases, so wonderful... before half of one floor made me exhausting, now 6 floors ok!!!
6. willing to play Taichi!
7. wife willing to exercise with me
8. cannulation much less pain
9. much less mistakes made during the HD
10. sympathy towards patients
11. no more curses towards others
12. empathy otwards other people
13. understanding more about love, love to family and love to other humans
14. calling father, and communicate with him with no hatred!!! so impossible before!
15. buying computer for mom iwth pleasure!
16. going to church with joy
17. learn so much from going to church, enriching my soul!
18. making so many new closed friends
19. work with more interest and joy
20. pray with heart and feel the existence of God, this is GREAT!!! you feel He listens and hears your prayer!!
21. feel the blessing much deeper and happier than the previous "loss" of being a christian!!!
....

i'lll always think and remind myself the blessings from HIM! Thank GOD!
How much I hope all human can enjoy the happiness and ease and comfort and fullfillness from HIM!

the 10 commandments, to get God's love!

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 09:27:03 GMT

20:1 [hb5] 　神吩咐這一切的話、說、
[kjv] And God spake all these words, saying,
[bbe] And God said all these words:
20:2 [hb5] 我是耶和華你的　神、曾將你從埃及地為奴之家領出來。
[kjv] I am the LORD thy God, which have brought thee out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage.
[bbe] I am the Lord your God who took you out of the land of Egypt, out of the prison-house.
20:3 [hb5] 除了我以外、你不可有別的神。
[kjv] Thou shalt have no other gods before me.
[bbe] You are to have no other gods but me.
20:4 [hb5] 不可為自己雕刻偶像、也不可作甚麼形像、彷彿上天、下地、和地底下、水中的百物．
[kjv] Thou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth:
[bbe] You are not to make an image or picture of anything in heaven or on the earth or in the waters under the earth:
20:5 [hb5] 不可跪拜那些像、也不可事奉他、因為我耶和華你的　神是忌邪的　神、恨我的、我必追討他的罪、自父及子、直到三四代．
[kjv] Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them, nor serve them: for I the LORD thy God am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation of them that hate me;
[bbe] You may not go down on your faces before them or give them worship: for I, the Lord your God, am a God who will not give his honour to another; and I will send punishment on the children for the wrongdoing of their fathers, to the third and fourth generation of my haters;
20:6 [hb5] 愛我守我誡命的、我必向他們發慈愛、直到千代。
[kjv] And shewing mercy unto thousands of them that love me, and keep my commandments.
[bbe] And I will have mercy through a thousand generations on those who have love for me and keep my laws.
20:7 [hb5] 不可妄稱耶和華你　神的名、因為妄稱耶和華名的、耶和華必不以他為無罪。
[kjv] Thou shalt not take the name of the LORD thy God in vain; for the LORD will not hold him guiltless that taketh his name in vain.
[bbe] You are not to make use of the name of the Lord your God for an evil purpose; whoever takes the Lord's name on his lips for an evil purpose will be judged a sinner by the Lord
20:8 [hb5] 當記念安息日、守為聖日。
[kjv] Remember the sabbath day, to keep it holy.
[bbe] Keep in memory the Sabbath and let it be a holy day.
20:9 [hb5] 六日要勞碌作你一切的工．
[kjv] Six days shalt thou labour, and do all thy work:
[bbe] On six days do all your work:
20:10 [hb5] 但第七日是向耶和華你　神當守的安息日．這一日你和你的兒女、僕婢、牲畜、並你城裡寄居的客旅、無論何工都不可作．
[kjv] But the seventh day is the sabbath of the LORD thy God: in it thou shalt not do any work, thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant, nor thy cattle, nor thy stranger that is within thy gates:
[bbe] But the seventh day is a Sabbath to the Lord your God; on that day you are to do no work, you or your son or your daughter, your man-servant or your woman-servant, your cattle or the man from a strange country who is living among you:
20:11 [hb5] 因為六日之內、耶和華造天、地、海、和其中的萬物、第七日便安息．所以耶和華賜福與安息日、定為聖日。
[kjv] For in six days the LORD made heaven and earth, the sea, and all that in them is, and rested the seventh day: wherefore the LORD blessed the sabbath day, and hallowed it.
[bbe] For in six days the Lord made heaven and earth, and the sea, and everything in them, and he took his rest on the seventh day: for this reason the Lord has given his blessing to the seventh day and made it holy.
20:12 [hb5] 當孝敬父母、使你的日子在耶和華你　神所賜你的地上、得以長久。
[kjv] Honour thy father and thy mother: that thy days may be long upon the land which the LORD thy God giveth thee.
[bbe] Give honour to your father and to your mother, so that your life may be long in the land which the Lord your God is giving you.
20:13 [hb5] 不可殺人。
[kjv] Thou shalt not kill.
[bbe] Do not put anyone to death without cause.
20:14 [hb5] 不可姦淫。
[kjv] Thou shalt not commit adultery.
[bbe] Do not be false to the married relation.
20:15 [hb5] 不可偷盜。
[kjv] Thou shalt not steal.
[bbe] Do not take the property of another.
20:16 [hb5] 不可作假見證陷害人。
[kjv] Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour.
[bbe] Do not give false witness against your neighbour.
20:17 [hb5] 不可貪戀人的房屋、也不可貪戀人的妻子、僕婢、牛驢、並他一切所有的。
[kjv] Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour's.
[bbe] Let not your desire be turned to your neighbour's house, or his wife or his man-servant or his woman-servant or his ox or his ass or anything which is his.
20:18 [hb5] 眾百姓見雷轟、閃電、角聲、山上冒煙、就都發顫、遠遠的站立．
[kjv] And all the people saw the thunderings, and the lightnings, and the noise of the trumpet, and the mountain smoking: and when the people saw it, they removed, and stood afar off.
[bbe] And all the people were watching the thunderings and the flames and the sound of the horn and the mountain smoking; and when they saw it, they kept far off, shaking with fear.
20:19 [hb5] 對摩西說、求你和我們說話、我們必聽、不要　神和我們說話、恐怕我們死亡。
[kjv] And they said unto Moses, Speak thou with us, and we will hear: but let not God speak with us, lest we die.
[bbe] And they said to Moses, To your words we will give ear, but let not the voice of God come to our ears, for fear death may come on us.
20:20 [hb5] 摩西對百姓說、不要懼怕、因為　神降臨是要試驗你們、叫你們時常敬畏他、不致犯罪。
[kjv] And Moses said unto the people, Fear not: for God is come to prove you, and that his fear may be before your faces, that ye sin not.
[bbe] And Moses said to the people, Have no fear: for God has come to put you to the test, so that fearing him you may be kept from sin.
20:21 [hb5] 於是百姓遠遠的站立．摩西就挨近　神所在的幽暗之中。
[kjv] And the people stood afar off, and Moses drew near unto the thick darkness where God was.
[bbe] And the people kept their places far off, but Moses went near to the dark cloud where God was.
20:22 [hb5] 耶和華對摩西說、你要向以色列人這樣說、你們自己看見我從天上和你們說話了。
[kjv] And the LORD said unto Moses, Thus thou shalt say unto the children of Israel, Ye have seen that I have talked with you from heaven.
[bbe] And the Lord said to Moses, Say to the children of Israel, You yourselves have seen that my voice has come to you from heaven
20:23 [hb5] 你們不可作甚麼神像與我相配、不可為自己作金銀的神像。
[kjv] Ye shall not make with me gods of silver, neither shall ye make unto you gods of gold.
[bbe] Gods of silver and gods of gold you are not to make for yourselves.
20:24 [hb5] 你要為我築土壇、在上面以牛羊獻為燔祭、和平安祭．凡記下我名的地方、我必到那裡賜福給你。
[kjv] An altar of earth thou shalt make unto me, and shalt sacrifice thereon thy burnt offerings, and thy peace offerings, thy sheep, and thine oxen: in all places where I record my name I will come unto thee, and I will bless thee.
[bbe] Make for me an altar of earth, offering on it your burned offerings and your peace-offerings, your sheep and your oxen: in every place where I have put the memory of my name, I will come to you and give you my blessing.
20:25 [hb5] 你若為我築一座石壇、不可用鑿成的石頭、因你在上頭一動家具、就把壇污穢了。
[kjv] And if thou wilt make me an altar of stone, thou shalt not build it of hewn stone: for if thou lift up thy tool upon it, thou hast polluted it.
[bbe] And if you make me an altar of stone do not make it of cut stones: for the touch of an instrument will make it unclean.
20:26 [hb5] 你上我的壇、不可用臺階、免得露出你的下體來。
[kjv] Neither shalt thou go up by steps unto mine altar, that thy nakedness be not discovered thereon.
[bbe] And do not go up by steps to my altar, for fear that your bodies may be seen uncovered.

My life my days my blessings and curses..(970)

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 03:28:32 GMT

It's hard to treat curses as blessings, but I believe God has taught me to think so. Without this curse, I can never come back to God, and can never have the peace and rest and complete worry free. Medically I must have worried far too much to get the pressure. No wonder HK ppl said working in office is like fighting! (or battling!)

Up to 2008 my birthday, if a year has 365 1/4 days, then I have lived 16,070 days, and so up to 7th Sept, it should be 16,192 days! Most of the days full of pains and discomforts. Thank God for teaching the prayers of Jabez, from Chronicles 1.

And Jabez made a prayer to the God of Israel, saying, If only you would truly give me a blessing, and make wider the limits of my land, and let your hand be with me, and keep me from evil, so that I may not be troubled by it! And God gave him his desire.

Yes, I want truly a blessing from God, and make wider the limits of my land (my wealth and my status), and God's hand be with me, keep me from evil, so that I may not be troubled by it!

Will have to resume my work soon... Hope this is a different re-start, I don't have to rely on my very limited intelligence, I will rely on God for everything, and so I will have no worries at all! Worry about my treatment? No, He will take care.

Without this belieft, I must leave this world, 'coz the pressure is too tremendous for me to take, it's like a mountain onto a human being's back!

16,070 I will count my days and count the blessings from God!

寄蜉蝣於天地、渺滄海之一

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 05:53:59 GMT

蜉蝣
昨晚上陳建樑之"唐宋八大家"真不錯，日後若退休一定多去旁聽，畢竟一課價8,000元，現在常因故翹課，實屬可惜…

《赤壁賦》中多好的詞句，令人遐想不已…

寄蜉蝣於天地…當自己是一個朝生暮死的小蟲蟲，正所謂"夏蟲不可以語冰",一輩子都沒過過冬天,和牠談什麼冰呢? 又和我談什麼身後之事呢? 之後更說, "哀吾生之須臾, 羡長江之無窮", 人生苦短, 《聖經》中摩西也說, 人一生如夜之一更,卻充滿勞苦愁煩, 人的一生又短如一聲嘆息,轉眼便成空,"如飛而去".

人生又是極渺小,蘇東坡借客人云: 渺滄海之一粟, 強若曹操,舳艫千里,旌旗蔽空,釃酒臨江,橫槊賦詩,固一世之雄也,而今安在哉?!

然而山川相繆,鬱乎蒼蒼,正是桃花依舊面目全非,江山永駐,人去船空...

故他們想"挾飛仙以遨遊,抱明月而長終,知不可乎驟得,託遺響於悲風..."

多麼地悲切,想到人生如此,不免太消極了一點,雖則蘇軾隨後曰,惟江上之清風,與山間之明月,耳得之而為聲,目遇之而成色,取之無禁,用之不竭,是造物者之無盡藏也,而吾與子之所共食(共享用),仍然比較消極..

人得意時不容易寫出這種悲涼深刻的文章.

據云蘇日誦《阿房宮》,也要找來好好讀讀..

When can I retire and what will I do then? (934)

Thu, 27 Mar 2008 07:33:33 GMT

Do a simple calculation now in the context of Hong Kong.

If you have 1M, and the average return let say its 5%, (if you buy HSBC then it's more than this, and gives 4 times a year), so every year you have 50K as interests, divided by 12, so you have 4K to spend every month. Obviously this is NOT enough even provided you have a shelter, a place to stay (you may have it in TinShuiWai, or in some of the Islands, which costs less than 1M to own a flat).

So how about 2M? For a single person, you have more than 8K to spend as daily expenditure, it should be enough I think. With 3M or 4M for a couple, not too bad.

Then of course, it doesn't mean you life is like the oldies who spend their retirement in public parks watching other playing chess. I can still teach a few classes, but only for the high end, over 1k/h will be entertained...

Then I can do lots of meaning and interesting things, and I don't have to do lots of things I don't want and I don't enjoy, typically thouse things like "bend your waist (body) just for 50 kg rice, or for 50k money?)...

i enjoy reading, i'll read all the recommended articles in my previous master programmes, really lots of them!!!
i enjoy playing sports activities, let me do more of them to keep myself healthy
i enjoy playing piano and want to learn more music instruments, let's do it!
i want to learn painting and drawing,
i want to travel around china and the world
....
..
.
a rather long list of things I can do, before the realization of this daydreaming, I must earn more money and a flat first... doing whatever bending my waist whatever angles i am asked to do...

Dont always blame others (924)

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 14:10:26 GMT

As the age goes up, people often tend to blame others for any mistakes/erros made, and some more seriously, like my demonic father, not only blame, but also scold and beat the kids.

I must have this tendency, so wherever whenever there is a conflict, I must firstly reflect on myself, if there is something I did wrongly.

Ppl the public hospital often say I don't memorize their important instructions, I remember dr woo also mentioned a few times, more importantly, a few years ago, when dr w told me to be careful of my diet and take medications on time, I didn't take it seriously and so the terrible consequence is that I have to do dialysis now (while many others told me they successfully postponed more than 10 yrs later...) now nurses told me to do this and that, sometimes I forgot (not always, nor very frequent, but sometimes).

I don't think my memory is that bad, it must be that I didn't take the words seriously enough.

For examle, during the training period from mid Oct to end Nov, sometimes I was late, I said I'd arrive at 10am, but sometimes 10:20 or 10:30. I didn't count the time walking from the parking to the ward, I didn't count the possible traffic jam...

I started to be serious, pay respect to others, also to myself. At least, be punctual.

(One of the reason of being late is that when I was in KW hospital, they told me to be there at 9am, so I did, but I always, yes, always, waited for hours, one time waited until 4pm, then to start the PD dialysis.)

Yesterday I finished my class at 12:30, I counted in traffice jam, walking time, and possible other delays, so I told them I would arrive at around 2pm, or before 2pm, but I arrived 1:35pm.

I will tell them all information like this, especially time, with a buffer.

I will follow the instructions v seriously, with no exception (now shorter hours for the time being in the evenings I can manage things better).

I will take every step with caution, like L said, it's my life (but sometimes I doubt the meaning of it, why I must be here to suffer all the time?! What's the purpose of life? If life is deemed to be end in a painful way, may I finish it in a peaceful and painless way? Why mercy killing is a sin? What's wrong with euthanasia? If medicine is to alleviate patients' pain and suffering, why not stop the pain as soon as possible?

Now I know I can't die because I have a loving wife... but I still don't understand, when florence told me, if I commit suicide I won't go to heaven, how about ackowledge my sin just before i die?

Let say if a patient is surely going to die in 1 hour, and is suffering so much he could hardly bear and is begging you ( like I was on 21/1/08 and 10/07) , would you help? How about 1 hour -> 1 day? how about 1day -> 1 month?

If the pain is continuous, how about 1 month -> 1 year?

Many years ago, I was already thinking, if I am useless (eg. not making any money), not contributing to the society, to anybody, usefu to nobody, I should go. Or, if I am hated by sb, more sure to go, if I suffer from a disease, then more definitely...

Life is to be enjoyed, isn't it?

God gave Adam an Eden to enjoy life, He created Eva to let human have partner/friend/spouse to enjoy life together. So if we human can't enjoy, if our life is full of suffering and pains, then it's high time we should go to see God.

The difference between public and private hospitals (911)

Thu, 31 Jan 2008 00:18:37 GMT

After two years in-out of the hospitals, I think I can objectivel compare the hospitals in HK.

Public hospitals provide medical treatments to patients at very low expenses (this doesn't mean the people in PH are good and with a loving heart, this means tax payers' money). Private hospitals charges 50-100 times more!

In terms of "quality", I feel almost the same, even the top renal doctor CH Leung in HK in St Sanatorium adopts the exactly same procedures as doctors in KW and QE.

So why there are still people going to the private?

The reason is hospitals' attitude.

The doctors are about the same, all polite and civic and patient, perhaps dr in private hospitals can be more patient.

The most different is the nurse' attitude.

The nurses in private h are very polite, they really "serve" you.

But the nurses in public h are very RUDE, always (yes, it's not "often", not "frequent", but "always") try to find execuses to scold patients. I was even thinking of spending 20k a month to do the hemodialysis in St Sanatorium just because of nurses' attitude in QE.

They very harsh, in Chinese, they just 兜頭兜面, like those housewives in the public estates scolding their kids in lifts, on street...

No wonder a young patient in KW was so angry, rebuked a nurse (calling her 八婆) who was scolding him, but then the nurse said "you deserve the disease...".

I didn't use that word, but I told nurse L yesterday could you please stop scolding me? She has repeated and repeated so many times so severely for several minutes because I used 4 not 5 pieces of adhesive tapes to protect the bloodlines.

She was right, she wanted to "protect my life", but if you are filled with so much love towards a patient, why do you have to use so fierce tone to scold? That's the only time in three months I didn't use 5 pieces of adhesive tapes, but she said I must have done the same at home...

Lee must have been very busy yesterday. There were two nurses taking care of one patient, but yesterday she had to take care two.

She spilled my blood onto the desk and floor, also the record book. Then she asked me to handcopy all 4 days' record into a new page, she said she could photocopy the clean page, so I did. After a while when she came back, she found one page not copied, she scolded me again, "why you always not listening to me?!", "I am very angry now!!!", come on, you told me you photocopy the clean page, I handcopied the bloody page...

I couldn't do the cannulation on V site, she tried, several times, unsuccessful, she blamed "你隻手一時得一時唔得點算啊..." it's not my fault, I have tried my best. This question should be asked by me.

Feeling like being bullied with no reason, but could only ALWAYS mentally prepared to be scolded!

Last night I had another bad dream, the demonic father ordered me to kneeled down and give him my 100% salary, otherwise I'd be beated seriously, I had no choice, but followed the instructions. But suddenly he beated me again, though only several sticks, then I was thinking hard why... I asked him to leave 10% to me.

I haven't had dreams with my demonic father for a long time, it must have something to do with Lee's scolding yesterday. She was very angry after I rebuked her. Maggie told me not to rub her the wrong way, but I am a human being, I have had enough, she can't just release her angry and unhappiness onto me for very minor mistakes...

Maggie told me Lee is actually a very nice person, I believe so, but she was too harsh for me, she could have told me to do this and that, be careful of this and that, but not in such a fierce tone!

I am sure there are channels and there are justice.

At least I believe the manager and the doctors in the QH are reasonable and civic.

change bank addresses

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 08:58:28 GMT

Banks do things so differerntly.

NCB wants address proof, they doubt the literacy of their customers...
CITIC Kawa almost self-service,
Chatered Bank most helpful
BEA also quite kind, also chatted with me, asking if other banks don't need customers goto the bank...
DBS like CITI Kawa
ICBC a bit like NCB and BOC

I still need to go to Hang Seng and Shanghai Commercial and Wing Lung... LCH? no need.

Moral Instinct (898)

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 04:42:58 GMT

Just read an article titled "Moral Instinct", v long article, written by Harvard scholar Steven Pinker. I really wanna read another of his article, or book "the Language Instinct"!

The article:

http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/13/magazine/13Psychology-t.html?pagewanted=1&ei=5087&em&en=98ce460aefda898e&ex=1200459600

If it is true that all bad behavior can be "healed", can be treated as "disease", wow, there will be no prisnor, and there will no need to have prison in the world, what we need is just hospital healing these brain defected people!

It turns up side down our traditional moral judgement, if a murder killed someone just because he lacked something in his brain, so he is sick...

There are already many such cases, a person with psychosis can be judged as innocent sinless, so now even a murder with no psychosis symptom can now be sent to hospital to do an M.R.I. test to see if his frontal part of the brain function normal or not...

This is horrible.

If this is true, then all over the world, the most important task for all police is to find out all people with frontal brain defect, and heal them. This is surely prevent lots of terrible crimes.

How about terrorists? Are there something missing in their frontal brain?

A very long article, but really worth reading!

Is the following REALY universally TRUE?

When anthropologists like Richard Shweder and Alan Fiske survey moral concerns across the globe, they find that a few themes keep popping up from amid the diversity. People everywhere, at least in some circumstances and with certain other folks in mind, think it bad to harm others and good to help them. They have a sense of fairness: that one should reciprocate favors, reward benefactors and punish cheaters. They value loyalty to a group, sharing and solidarity among its members and conformity to its norms. They believe that it is right to defer to legitimate authorities and to respect people with high status. And they exalt purity, cleanliness and sanctity while loathing defilement, contamination and carnality.
....

I like the following para.

The institutions of modernity often question and experiment with the way activities are assigned to moral spheres. Market economies tend to put everything up for sale. Science amoralizes the world by seeking to understand phenomena rather than pass judgment on them. Secular philosophy is in the business of scrutinizing all beliefs, including those entrenched by authority and tradition. It not surprising that these institutions are often seen to be morally corrosive.

...

positive thinking (879)

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 08:04:14 GMT

When Maggie told me one of her colleague's unhappiness... I thought it could be something happy to me!

It's just different ways of thinking. One thing unhappy to somebody can be happy to another guy.

For negative people, all things are unhappy. For example, if an unhappy person wins a lottery, he can be unhappy because he thinks it poses danger to him, and anxieties, worries, burdens...

For positive people, even suffering can be happy, "an experience in life".

So for one time, I even thought of the HD machine be a nice thing, it removes all the poisoneous stuff our of my body and makes me look like healthy and normal man.

But when the pains and troubles come, I don't like it!

Of course if only all the health and normal being can come without so many troubles and pains.

EQ

I believe more and more the magic of EQ now.

Yesterday we met a nurse who is also studying in poly u. Maggie said she feels this nurse must have a higher EQ than L, I agree.

EQ is more important than IQ, also more important than your knowledge and academic achievement. Just take a look at those "seniors", obviously their EQ is better and higher!

But EQ also comes with family education and how you grow up in what kind of family....

EQ in a broader sense, is the "redness" in China 20 years ago. When you are specializing in something, an expert in one field, but if you are not "red", then you are nothing. You must be "red", you must have good "guanxi", good relationship towards important (key) people to get promoted. This is also EQ.

How do you think of something determines that thing! Isn't this very subjective?!